Messing up big time can result to a devastating feeling of cataclysmic proportions. Simba ran into exile. Peter went back to fishing. Judas hanged himself.
Falling out of your walk of faith especially as a mature Christian is a feeling far beyond bliss.
But there’s hope.
Isaiah 43:25: “I—yes, I alone—will blot out your sins for my own sake
and will never think of them again.” (NLT)
God HIMSELF says that he will blot out your sins for His own sake. The death of Jesus for you wasn’t for nothing. Leave no space for a fallen archangel(the devil) to torment your thoughts and push you into guilt.
Jesus understands you. He has been there.
Hebrews 4:15: “This High Priest of ours understands our weaknesses, for he faced all of the same testings we do, yet he did not sin.” (NLT)
This then begets the question, how could he possibly understand the guilt I am going through if He did not sin?
2nd Corinthians 5:21: “God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.” (NIV)
At the cross, Jesus felt the burden of sin at the pressure of eternity when He carried the sins of the entire world, past, present and future to a point that He was no longer just full of sin, but the embodiment of sin itself so that we in turn could not just be full of righteousness, but be made the embodiment of the righteousness of God himself. A profound transaction was made.
Jesus felt a burden of sin, guilt, depression and separation from the father to such a diverse extent that no one who has ever lived has even come close to experiencing what He did. The cross is the only place where Jesus cried out My God instead of Father.
Matthew 27:46: “And about the ninth hour Jesus cried out with a loud voice, saying, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” that is, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” (ESV)
You may face the alienation and guilt-capacity of one person. Jesus felt it on a capacity level of trillions.
So no matter how far you feel you have fallen, no matter what you think you’ve done, do not fret. Jesus understands you more than you can possibly imagine. He has a passion for you. In Him You are forgiven and it has been forgotten. Take heart.